darsynia

I used to think, quite confidently, that knowing I was having distorted thoughts would help me clear them. I was kind of right but not all that much, as it turns out.

I know I'm depressed. I haven't bathed in a long time. I don't want to cook or clean or eat. I have trouble sleeping. I don't want to play WoW or eat the fudge brownies with peanut butter icing we bought me for my birthday.

Typing that all out makes it look a LOT more worrisome than I've been treating it, holy shit. But yeah. I don't want to do ANYTHING, and not even the fact that my pants don't really fit anymore makes me feel better (cause, yay, baby) because that means I have to go clothes shopping, and don't you know FAT women don't get to have sex, so we sure as hell don't need maternity clothes! So THAT should be fun.

On an entirely different note, Carolyn can do the alphabet up to F and sometimes G now, we're shopping for a new-to-us car (looked at the HHR yesterday and I love it, looking at the Malibu Maxx and hopefully a Vibe tomorrow), and I came up with a really great way to pull my 2010 NaNoWriMo into a fully fledged series.

Speaking of which, is there anyone out there with AIM or possibly e-mail that would like to chat with me about this? I do my best writing thinking when I'm writing down my ideas to clarify them to someone else (and ILU wolfshark for putting up with my spontaneous doing that earlier! I try really hard not to do that without explicit permission, lol), but since this is an original Fantasy hint of Sci Fi & future steampunk novel, it's not as easy to find sounding boards, hehe.

How is everyone else? To sum up me right now, I feel like a completely ungrateful piece of shit, let me tell you. We're doing well as a family (despite my lethargy. ILU, family), I'm pregnant, and life is good! Y SO SAD, SELF?

no tags because ugh, depressing.

ps. I can post a bit about the story in a comment/new post/edit if yinz are interested. I won't devolve into a puddle of misery if you don't, which for me is a plus today.

Watched the first couple episodes of Veronica Mars last night. I did NOT expect to like it--I have a big problem with feeling uncomfortable/too much hostility in media things (as in, shows or movies with a lot of that, not like, news programs, not that I wasn't the only one that thought that's what I might have meant. MOVING ON)--but I do like it! Not sure when I'll get a chance to watch more, but yeah.

Also, SIGNAL BOOST: INCEPTION FANDOM STARTER KIT. HOW DOES THIS ONLY HAVE 17 COMMENTS SO FAR.

Seriously, this uh... might be more fun to write in than Who or Stargate? I haven't even seen teh whole movie yet and that was still a fantastic post and go read it if you even vaguely like Inception because franticsga did a GREAT job. Also, hi pingback bot! :D

So. I'll tell you you need to watch Inception and consider reading that post or one or the other or both, and you can tell me why I should keep watching Veronica Mars? Deal!

ps. have a great story on tap for either Doctor Who Santa or the SyFy Big Bang, not sure which it'll be yet. Fun adventure Amy Rory Eleven! Yay!

ETA: Apparently there is who_beta! WIN. But if anyone's interested in offering help, please do! :D
TLDR: how do I hook up with a Doctor Who beta, ya'all? It's such a big fandom, is there really no 'official' place to look or are my search skills lacking? :\

Okay, I've done my due diligence, I think! I basically am looking for something along the lines of sga_beta but for Doctor Who/Torchwood/Whoniverse stuff. I can't find anything! I don't want to just show up on the big doctorwho community waving my hand like a gigantic n00b asking for help if that's not the place to ask, but I'm wayyy unconnected to this fandom right now and I'm intimidated and HALP.

I basically want a cold_poet for Doctor Who, haha. Not that I could ever or would ever replace her, mind you, but I want someone I can chat with who will also kick my ass as a beta, and while grammarwoman is fantastic and awesome as well, she's my SGA buddy and I feel like I'm fandom cheating? A little? I guess I'm saying I want a more 'this is a creative conversation' kind of experience, and I can't not squee at certain people about IRL stuff and it derails me terribly :(

God, I should NOT post this, because it's likely to be offputting for some folks and offending to others argh.

I am so not tagging thissss. It can disappear into the nether of bad judgement LJ posts! *waves*

This article about Ruth Bader Ginsberg ends with a great quote, referencing her professional struggle toward gender equality in the law, and how she had those same struggles in her private life:

In response to a question about work-life balance, Ginsburg explained that in the early '70s, her son, "what I called a lively child but school psychologists called hyperactive," was forever in trouble and that she was constantly called in to his school, even though she and her husband both had full-time jobs.

"One day, I was particularly weary,"* she explained, and so when the school called, she said, "This child has two parents. I suggest you alternate calls, and it's his father's turn." She said calls from the school came much less frequently after that, because the school was "much less inclined to take a man away from his job." Ruth Bader Ginsburg doesn't growl and doesn't issue threats, and she rarely eats small forest dwellers. But she is still the mother of all grizzlies to me.

It also talks about how many women who refer to themselves as feminists now have a lot to thank her for--but what's the most touching is the context itself: a speech she recently gave which was written by her late husband and scheduled to be given by him.

Do the checkboxies for twitter and FB really post friends-locked stuff you comment on to FB or Twitter if you checkbox it while commenting? A lot of people are like 'DO NOT CROSS POST YOUR STUFF' and I'm a bit confused, cause if it's MY stuff, butt out, yeah? But if it's my comment to your post which posts your post, I can see why they're saying it.

It was just one of those things that set my teeth on edge seeing all the posts (+1, but mine's not quite the same? *shifty eyes*) about cross-posting, with quite a few saying what to do and what not to do with all content, not just their own.

Context: I was just concerned with a very specific instance of someone being all 'YOU must avoid posting YOUR posts because I MIGHT comment on them' which, fuck off? But the people concerned that it takes control away from where their content is posted are absolutely justified in feeling powerless in that aspect.

edit: Ironically, I have no intention of reposting anywhere anyway, I just was all 'don't tell me what to do!' lol.

ETA2, son of ETA: so yeah, bad idea, no? Like I told lavvyan, I don't WANT to live in the magical happy world the people who came up with this idea live in--the one where everything you do is totes okay to show everyone and there are no consequences about it. Cause that would mean I was insane, and that's actually kind of a boring world.

Though anyone who's talked with me can tell you I pretend I live there anyway. la la la.

HAD SO MUCH FUN IN CHICAGO! WHEE!

I came home and my 14 month old was BIGGER. After three days. And I wasn't just crazy, either, because she grew out of some clothes and into others.

In three days.

She looks like a toddler now. Wow.

Also, how much do I love that David took forever to sign stuff because he was personalizing despite what Creation told him? ♥

Lastly, thanks to crysothemis, I have a hankering for cliche_bingo, both reading and possibly writing? But it's not being run this year. It's been mentioned that there are similar communities but I suck at finding them, does anyone know about any? It's kind of selfish, but if, like, no one in any like communities write or read the same stuff I like, it's less fun to join up, you know?

*goes back to reading fic, recs welcome (SGA, Whoverse)*

Best MD present ever? A fuss-free bedtime for the first time in the history of ever, with lots of kisses. My baby loves me!

Sorry I've not been around, I keep saying that, but I do still care about ya'all, and I do still want to know what's going on, even though I had a bit of an unintended hiatus from LJ for a bit there.

( Here are some pictures to make it better. )
eta: just checked on some specific people, and if someone can tell me why vida_boheme has deleted, I'd really appreciate it! EEK. Also, cut is fixed, sorry those who don't like babies, if you're out there! She's hiding now! (not meant snarky, promise)

YOU GUYS, MY BABY CAN GIVE KISSES. BEST. CHRISTMAS PRESENT. EVER.

Also, she got lots of toys and she loved them but her favorite presents were the BOOKS she got. I seriously could not be happier with my adorable daughter who gives kisses. KISSES, YOU GUYS. *dies*


Dear Yuletide Author,

THANK YOU THANK YOU! I am currently unable to load the archive for various reasons (basically load + possible internet issues at home) but I wanted you to know how very happy I am and I hope you aren't worried about whether I enjoyed your lovely gift!

I will continue trying to load when I get the chance! I hope you're having a wonderful December!

I can't keep up! /o\

I still need to comment back to a lot of the feedback for That Which, but I want to thank everyone who read and enjoyed, whether you commented or not! Speaking of fic:

THE FANFICTION LOVE MEME

ETA: Instructions provided by the always lovely velvetwhip, including the nifty symbols:
♚ comment with your username and the fandoms you write for.
♚ people will comment telling you what their favorite fic by you is, what character/pairing they think you write best, and other positive comments. they can also mention what they think you should write more of, or anything else concerning what they like about your writing.

I am going to make a concerted effort (paper due on Saturday notwithstanding) to comment on all of my flisters who have threads! *pant pant*

ALSO, apparently Best Baby Ever is also nonchalant about teething. She was a little bit fussy last Sunday night, but no more than usual. Monday morning I had breakfast with my mom and she's like, 'Does Carolyn have teeth??'

Yep. She cut two teeth and we didn't even notice. I loff her. She also can roll around the floor and almost crawls. I keep reminding her that she's only 5 months old, but she just giggles at me.